Trying to Make Plans

I have the feeling that if I blog about my intentions, they will be more likely to happen!  

My list of assignments for uni hasn't shrunk any recently.  I have to do a critique of questions about suicide.  It involves four papers for each question, preferably 2 for and 2 against.  I have to basically tear these apart!  Once I start, it should be easy.  I have already done a presentation on 3 of the papers.  I plan to go to uni tomorrow, early, which will involve going to bed early.  It will be a challenge, but it will be worth it if I get work done.  It will take some of the pressure off me too.  I am working late tomorrow night though.  It's possible I will need a nap! 

The last day and a half so far haven't been as bad as the previous 10 days.  My mood has been more level.  I don't want to get over excited though!  I know what BPD can do, and I will try to take the day as it comes.  I did that last week, but it didn't work then.  I won't think about that though!  

I am not happy that the venlafaxine isn't having much of an effect.  I don't have a doctors appointment until next wednesday, which has been 3 and a half weeks.  Even when I get there, the GP won't change my meds anyway.  I kind of hope I will get something extra.  Just to help when I have those hard days.  I don't feel like I've got enough skills to cope with it yet.  I do try the advice I am given, but sometimes I don't know how to do the skills suggested to me!

But anyway, I will try to have an early night, and I will try to go to uni tomorrow to do this assignment.  Or make a start on all of the assignments! :P 

Thanks for your never-ending support
xxx