Forgotten Already?

Well, I phoned the psychiatrist's office again today, to see if I existed on their system yet; I didn't get that answered, but she did say she hadn't given me an appointment yet.  I First saw her over 3 weeks ago, and I thought I was due to see her again next week.  This feels awful, and although my reasonable side knows she's just busy, I feel really abandoned already.  I'm trying to fight it, but I just don't think I have the skills to fight these emotions.  The BPD side is winning.  Keep in mind the post before this was written about an hour ago, it just shows how torturous this disorder is.  I need help now!  I can't imagine having to wait another year to gain the skills to fight this!