What about today?

Well I saw this quote today, and it couldn't be more true:

“You know your borderline when an hour goes by, you’re feeling “normal” and think you’ve never had BPD to begin with.”

It got me thinking about normality. Strange as it sounds, I feel weirder when I feel "normal" than when I feel "borderline", probably because I'm not used to it.  If I've had a good chat with someone, it seems to remind me what I have, and while I'm being reminded, all I can think is, "this isn't me thinking this".  I have got used to being so unstable because I have been like that for as long as I can remember.  It is pleasant, don't get me wrong, just strange.  But then, when I get my hopes up, I'm flung back in the deep end, and feel shit all over again; like false hope really.